It’s official! I’ve begun my 2 week liquid diet required prior to surgery. It has been a long time coming and a long journey, but I’m nearing the end of the beginning. Lord hunny boo boo child!! Ok sorry, I had a moment. This whole process has been an emotional one. I felt excitement, disappointed, frustrated, grateful, and everything in between. The roughest time may have been the 2yrs I’ve waited to restart the process. Better yet, the years I’ve spent over weight and trying just about everything to stop the scale from going up (also when I gave up on the scale altogether). My surgery date is in a couple weeks and I’ve never felt more ready to change my life permanently. I have to ask myself, do I have any fears going into this bariatric surgery? I think the obvious fear would be death and yet that is the least of my fears. There is risk in this, however if I lose my life during surgery, I’d already be out and without pain (hopefully). The fears I have, have to do with what comes after the surgery. Will I still struggle to lose the weight? After I get the weight down to a healthy number, will my body continue to lose and reach an unhealthy number at the opposite end? How tough will the recovery be for me, the one who has a low pain tolerance? When I say my pain tolerance is low, I mean I can’t even catch a cold without feeling like my time on earth is coming to an end. Hey, judge me tomorrow, not today! The point is, I have many fears, but they are minuscule compared to what I’m looking forward to! I can’t wait to feel good in my skin again, living an active life. Not being winded while playing with my nieces and nephews. Having confidence and not trying to hide from people and most of all pictures. Living a long healthy life and my weight not holding me back from experiencing it. Going on a trip and not feeling some kind of way about the little 1in slack in the airplane seat belt. Well, I mean when I feel safe to hoop on a plane again. The point is, there are a plenty of things for me to look forward to rather than dwell on the negative possibilities. I can’t wait to continue this journey and share it with you all. I need to come up with a list of things to bring with me, which I will share as well in another blog.
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