In less than 12hrs I will be on the operating table, unconscious and embarking on a new life before my pretty eyes can flutter open. I've gone through so much to get to this point. For some, it still happened rather quickly, but I'd say it was about the average time for this process. I've [...]
There will come a point in which I will have to ask myself, "will I ever be healed enough for anyone?" I spent my days in isolation, lonely in my thoughts, tiptoeing around the uncomfortably thick air of which was you. Many had asked if I was sure you were the right one for me. [...]
It's official! I've begun my 2 week liquid diet required prior to surgery. It has been a long time coming and a long journey, but I'm nearing the end of the beginning. Lord hunny boo boo child!! Ok sorry, I had a moment. This whole process has been an emotional one. I felt excitement, disappointed, [...]
During my last weight-loss post, I was struggling with setbacks. I felt like things were spiraling, I was having trouble getting my CPAP to continue this journey...things felt like they were going around the toilet bowl so to speak. My emotions got the best of me and I did what I thought I was beyond, [...]
There are many things that I need to learn and overcome. The biggest being my fear of failure and self sabotage. I have always had a habit of losing weight and gaining because of restriction. I'd say I have an addiction to food and deprivation is the thorn in my side. Knowing that and being [...]
Hi everyone, this isn’t my traditional way of blogging, however I am in the process of replacing my computer. The dreadful computer issue complaint, *insert eye rolls*. It’s true I have a thick black line right down the middle right of my screen that is growing like a weed. I needed to post, I needed [...]
I mentioned this once before and my friends have told me to do it. I refused, I dodged, I contemplated, I refused again....yet here we are. I actually did it. I posted a video on YouTube. A singular video and I have a bit of mixed feelings. Let's go through them!!! I'm anxious. I hate [...]
There is something stirring within me I am lost in the familiar of grief An uneasiness that leaves me queasy A worry of the changes I can't see ~ Once I stood tall before the world with wonder My spine held in it strength, my feet routed in my vision My walk had a confidence, [...]
Gala Serks 